Look, Mom! Charles Manson Escaped Prison! 😈

Charles Manson

My 12-year-old bulging, blue eyeballs couldn't believe what they were seeing and my finely-tuned ears couldn't believe what they were hearing. Standing before millions of viewers on prime time television, Charles Manson was singing "Softly Whispering I Love You", a beautiful love song, while innocent and unsuspecting backing vocalists accompanied him. The nerve of this murderer! How did he get out of prison after only being locked away a year? The mere sight of this bearded creep made my tender skin crawl. I was going to make sure he was thrown back in the pokey and this time, the key would be flushed down the toilet.

Charles Manson was convicted of masterminding nine brutal murders at four locations in July and August of 1969. While on trial in 1971, he nonchalantly imparted no regrets, "Remorse for what? You people have done everything in the world to me. Doesn't that give me equal right?" I needed to make sure Charles didn't go after these trusting singers, too. They had their young lives ahead of them. Still, I was mesmerized by this melodic message of love. My suspicious mind went back and forth like Dr. DoLittle's pushmi-pullyu. Look at the utility-chain necklace Charles is wearing. He could choke someone with that chain or even beat them! What a fake. That's not a cross he's wearing on that stainless steel chain, it's a demonic symbol. 

My mother was in the laundry room bottle feeding a dying calf who was finally standing. I screamed at the top of my lungs for her to come quickly into the living room. She slammed down Calfie's bottle and came running to my rescue. With near delirium, I pointed at the television screen and frantically hollered, "Charles Mansion is going to kill one of his singers! Call the police!"

My mother put her hands on her hips and with frustration declared, "Oh, for cryin' out loud, Deborah! That's not Charles Manson! That's the English Congregation! Now, go outside and find something constructive to do." Within seconds, my heroine's journey came to a screeching halt and it was just another imaginative day in 1972. In reality, I was no more than any other tween-aged country bumpkin.

Brian Keith, The English Congregation

I stumbled outside and began throwing dirt clods at the side of the barn. I threw myself in a heap on a bale of alfalfa hay. Neither of these constructive activities eased me. I needed to connect with an understanding beating heart to regain my footing. Barefoot, I jumped onto the bare back of one of my rescued horses and took him for a swim in the Cottonwood, California Creek. Horsie and I swam against the fierce ocean current while I held on tightly to his neck. The snapping sharks nipped at Horsie's hocks, however, he expertly kicked their gnarly teeth in. Within inches of our lives, we made it safely to our exclusive island. I fell soundly asleep under an oak tree while Horsie's comforting nostrils breathed his heavenly scent over me.

Chesapeake Bay, aka Horsie

A wannabe hero's intended journey is constantly bombarded with obstacles. On the bright side, Charles Manson wasn't headed toward the recording studio and he didn't escape prison after all. 

Deborah

Watch 'Charles' sing the beautiful song here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pt2PnfdqzTg

The Trans-Atlantic TransSexual ~ From Bill to Billie Felice in Only a Day

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In 1999, I was sitting comfortably with my family on a double-decker 747 in Frankfurt, Germany, awaiting our return flight to San Francisco, California. I wondered who’d occupy the empty seat to my left for the 12-hour flight and was excited at the prospect of an engaging conversation to occupy my time. 💺 My mother used to say, “Deborah, you’ve never met a stranger.” Every seat on the massive airplane was filled with the exception of the one next to me. ✈️

At last, my seatmate arrived. She stood six-feet-two and had a kind, grandmotherly face. Her snow-white hair was beautifully coifed, her red fingernails perfectly manicured and her face expertly made-up. 💅👄💄She was wearing a gorgeous dress with high heels and pantyhose. 💃👠👛

I smiled, extended my right hand and introduced myself. "Hello. I'm Deborah Gilson." She offered her massive hand, which enveloped mine like a ski glove and told me her name, Billie Felice. Striking up a conversation, I asked about her travels abroad. She said she was heading home from Stockholm, Sweden. Wincing in apparent physical discomfort, she gingerly leaned over and exclaimed, “Wow! Thank God, sex change operations happen only once in a lifetime.” ♀️ ♂️ I'd never heard of such a thing, however, nodded my head up and down. With 12 hours to pass, Billie began her story. 📔

In 1926, William, a precious boy, was born at the Queen of Angels Hospital in Los Angeles, California. 😇 Known as "Billy" during his youth, by the age of six he knew he was different from the other boys his age. He preferred doing things with his younger sister, rather than boy activities. His father consistently told him he'd never amount to anything. As Billy grew older, feminine feelings crept into his thought process, causing him to wonder what was wrong. 🤔 My mind raced. I had no idea how she felt and frankly, was relieved I adored every ounce of my ultra-feminine being. How in the world could someone live masking such a horrific predicament? 🤫

In 1943 at age 17, Bill joined the Navy during the height of World War II. Upon returning home from the service, he married a young woman he’d known several years. 👰🤵He felt this would remove his uncomfortable feelings of feminism and be met with approval in his father's eyes. 👁️👁️ I stared at her massive hands and attempted visualizing them at the helm of a fighter plane. 🚀 Nope. The vision wasn't happening.

During the next 20 years, Bill’s marriage went from bad to worse, although they were blessed with a beautiful daughter. 🤱The problem of his long-time secret feminine feelings became a bone of contention, however, they were never discovered by others. My furrowed eyebrows secretly wondered, "Wait a minute❗It's physically possible to fake having sex with the wrong sex❓" Finally, Bill felt he had no other choice than to end the marriage.

Three years later, Bill met another lovely lady with whom he supposedly established a beautiful relationship and married. His love for his new bride was so deep and complete he was able to keep his feelings of femininity under wraps. The next 10 years provided an immense amount of happiness for him.👩‍❤️‍💋‍👨 I wanted to holler, "What in the world? How could a secret of such magnitude remain hidden by one's spouse?!" 😬😲 As if reading my exasperated thoughts, Bill admitted he consistently drowned his sorrows in booze.🍾🍷🍸🍹 Perhaps he should reach out to Alcoholics Anonymous?

In 1973, Bill’s business sold for a handsome sum, allowing him to retire at age 47. 💰 However, he felt strongly as a budding alcoholic with a large amount of money, this could prove dangerous. ☠️Over the next several years, he involved himself in various businesses in which he had no experience. These ended in bankruptcy while the drinking continued, even though he was a half-hearted member of Alcoholics Anonymous.💔 He could no longer live with himself and decided the best scenario would be to end his life. 😰 I sat riveted while listening to Billie Felice's unusual story. Even Jerry Springer couldn't make this stuff up. 😵

One Sunday in 1987, with his wife and family away, Bill took his 357 Magnum Colt Python to his office and began writing a good-bye letter to his family. 💌✍️ He apologized for the havoc he created. However, while sitting at his desk, three members from his AA meetings appeared in the doorway. 🚪They just happened to stop by to see how he was doing. Seeing the pistol on his desk, they took him home. The next day they checked him into the Veterans' Alcohol and Drug Rehabilitation Program. 🤒🤕 Everyone faces monumental challenges in their life, however, nothing compared to what I was hearing straight from the horse's mouth. 🐴

During the first three days of his detoxification program, Bill received divorce papers. He began to feel at peace with himself. ☮️ At last, Bill knew what he needed to do: convert into the woman he always wanted to become. Paving the path for his transformation, he boarded the flight to Sweden. Flying home to San Francisco as Billie Felice, she went to the ladies room to powder her nose, freshen her lipstick and spray on “stink pretty”, her favorite fragrance.

I maintained contact with Billie Felice and dined with her in San Francisco, along with my Aunt Shirlee, who also appreciated courageous individuals. Billie Felice had been disowned by her family and longed to connect with loving individuals. 💞 With the 72-year-old ladies only a month apart in age, I listened intently as they excitedly talked like magpies about their younger years.🐦🐦

My life was enriched as a mother and continuously active. Unfortunately, I lost contact with Billie Felice, however, learned she died in 2001. ⚰️ Was she alone during her final moments on God's green Earth? Had she any regrets in her 74 years?

By a remarkable chance, Billie’s flight home was with my family and me. Who could have imagined the privilege of sitting next to so much life? While on a Trans-Atlantic flight next to a transsexual, I learned Bill became Billie Felice in only a day.👨👵